“Some mistakes… Just have greater consequences than others. But you don’t have to let the result of one mistake be the thing that defines you”
It is amazing how many mistakes one life can accumulate. You try so hard, day by day, to make something of yourself, to prove that maybe just maybe you haven’t completely given up yet. But you always fail. Something always goes wrong, and you’re left to pick up the scattered pieces. Each day becomes a tomorrow and then another day until finally you are left standing at the abyss of time wasted and you’re teetering on the edge. Every word out of your mouth is another regret added to the impossible weight on your shoulders, and even though you want to just stop, to catch your breath, you know that life won’t allow it. There’s only so many minutes, and if every second isn’t filled, then you’re never going to be anybody. So you keep moving, keep making the same mistakes and wishing that you could just understand where the hell you went wrong. Wishing that a miracle will just appear one day, and everything will go back to those days when you were so damn carefree. And it’s not fair.
“Do you know what it is like,
to lie in bed awake;
with thoughts to haunt
you every night,
of all your past mistakes.
Knowing sleep will set it right –
if you were not to wake.”